Allah kan Maha Mengetahui

mama, i miss you so bad.

i miss your strength

i miss your love.

i miss your touch.

i miss your nagging.

i miss the way you look deep into my eyes.

i miss the way you keep yourself altogether.

i miss the way you smile and laugh at my silly jokes.

i miss your tears, which come out whenever you reveal your feelings to me.

And now, i wonder.

what happen to you? can you survive?

how you're doing every sickening day of your life?

can you manage all the chores?

can you manage all the burden on your soft shoulders?

can you?

God i Miss my mommy.
and i can only pray for you from far.
May you'll be granted some strength to go thru this test.

May you find your happiness in this life and life hereafter.

And please ya Allah, for whatever the pain it costs you, let me carry half of it.
And i do hope...

that the pain i feel choking my soul every single day is at least half of what you're feeling.

So that i can lessen it for you.

I love you mommy, lillahiTaala.